mein ye sab bahut hi dukhi ho kar keh raha hun.........just I wanna express my feelings...plz read it full if u want..
frndz my father is a psychic person......he really needs psychiatrist help........
he is full of frustation aur wo mujh par gussa nikalte rehte hain.....
I was an extremely brilliant stud upto 9th........then when I entered 10th,my father, like others started pushing me for studies but not too much......(due to my mother's illnes....) & I managed to pass wid 89%......
then when I opted to prep for iit in class 11th he started regarding iit as sumthing out of the world.....as a passport to success & happiness in life.......i.e.,he was simply overawed by it (& made me also) ........
then in class 12th , he started pressing me very hard......for both boards as well as iit........daily he used to abuse me & give lecture abt study only......I was really very fed up......he didn't hav any other topic to talk abt .....the result was that i cudn't m,ake it this time & got a air 11k in aieee.....
he really mentally tormented me....really hurted me wid his behaviour......I was depressed bt decided to drop......
now when I am in search of coachings etc, he keeps rebuking me all the time.....he says that go to sum coll this time only....I don't want u here at home...next year u'd perform even worse than this..etc etc,.....& jab bhi wo mujhe dantte hein toh my mother does that what we call...'aag mein ghi dalne ka kam' ....
I am really hurt at heart & I just wanted to share my feelings so I did here......
thanku for reading....... I am really in a state for desperation but 1 thing is clear in my mind...I wanna go to iits......
I have no 1 in my favour.......what shud I do?