Please take sum time 2 read this patiently....
Hello All.........
Thanks to all of u for posting such +ve things here..
I hav a problem & hope to seek some solution here..
These 4 months <April, May, June, July>
have been the worst months of my life.
I had expected a lot from myself, had worked as hard as i could but i ended up screwing my JEE & AIEEE.
N so,,
I ended up with not-a-very-good-rank in AIEEE.
My problem is dat,
I somehow want to get admission this year itself.
I hav stopped trusting my damn lucck.
It feels dat nothing is going to be right ever.... :(
I mean,
I did all dat i could, n still cudnt get nething........... :((
Have spent months in depression..
Have held myself responsible 4 doing nothing 4 my parents..
Tho they have supported me all troughout i hav always felt that i hav not been able to make them happy....
It hurts all d more to see people who were always not very 'deserving' <if i may use d word>
doiung better than u..
People in my class, Who never did better dan me in a single test have made their way..
All our in soe engg college or d other..
It really hurts badly..
Never thot it would happen to me..
1day i wud c myself, the lowest amoung them all...........
I blame myself 4 all dat..
But its not dat i didnt work..
I really dont knw how i screwed up things badly.:((
Neways,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Now i m trying 4 Collgs with not a very Good reputation as compared to IITs ofcourse.
I always wanted to do Engg from a good collg,
But then i hav no choice left with me..
The back of my mind screams the hell out of me that i have to get admission this year itself..
So,,,,,,,
I plan to take a good stream in an okaish collg this year and put in all dat i can in those 4yrs.
N as DON sed,,
U can take up an okaish collg n do veryy well their..
So dat is wat i hope 4 myself........
If u ppl cud suggest....
Is dat OK??
I mean taking admn in some not-very-gr8 collg this year n do extremely well there?
I have been thru a phase of depression bcoz of all dat has happened in d past,
Bcoz of my performance,
Seeing how ppl who were well below me in the class, making to such good places.......
Its been pathetic.
I hav destroyed my health 4 d same..
Doctors have warned me against taking tension,
Hav undergone counselling n all....
But wat wud actually release my tension, will be i getting admitted into an Engg Collg next year...
Despite of all demotivation 7 depression i still aim to make something big in life..
I want to do pursue higher studies after this and do something really unconventional n show it to everyone around..
I would be extremely greatfull if ne1 can help me with this..
How can i get out of this depressing phase?
&
Will it be a fine decision to take admn this year?
And,,,,
Congrats to all,,
Especially DON & Himanshu,
4 helping ppl out here in such a big way..
Ur motivatng words really help..
Thanks loads.